Thursday, April 21, 2011
Who would have thought
Classes are crazy, I am tired all the time, the commuting sucks with all the constructions on the freeway, I've been getting less sleep than ever, and yet I could not be more happy than I am right now.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Dancing
With all the busyness of life and school, I feel profoundly this emptiness in my life that I just want to rectify. I am talking about dancing. I absolutely love to dance! I feel so sad that I have not been able to have the time to take classes. I try to go to the gym at least about 3x a week. And I try to make 2 of those days a Zumba day. Unfortunately, just getting those days in this semester has been a trial. I NEED to go to those classes. But I want more than that, I want to do Ballet and Jazz on top of Latin dancing.
There is something about being able to dance that makes me feel so happy. And as if all the stress I have experienced up to that point are flying off my body. I JUST WANT TO DANCE. I am determined to come up with some plan so that I am getting it at least twice a week (because I have not been able to in the last 2 months). I will be going tonight, I'll try to describe how I feel when I come home.
There is something about being able to dance that makes me feel so happy. And as if all the stress I have experienced up to that point are flying off my body. I JUST WANT TO DANCE. I am determined to come up with some plan so that I am getting it at least twice a week (because I have not been able to in the last 2 months). I will be going tonight, I'll try to describe how I feel when I come home.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Friendship
There has been so much going on! I had an aunt and uncle (siblings) die within a month of each other in unrelated causes. I am still enjoying my master's program. Enjoying getting to know new people. Working a lot. Spending time with my family. And realizing who my true friends are.
I just realized that there are just certain friends who are always there for me (Mika and Michelle are my best examples) whether it's convenient for them or not. With these people I am able to be myself, I know I can call and they will respond within a reasonable period of time. They are interested in what's going on in my life. They never judge me for my wrongs, whether they agree with me or not. They make me feel like I can conquer the world. I don't need them to call me every day or even every week to know that they do think of me and love me. They've been great examples to me on what friends really are and really do. I've tried to fix my behavior as a friend because of the kind of examples they set. I love them so much!
I have many friends that I make excuses all the time for. They're too busy right now, they are just free spirited, they have way too many friends to think about me once every three months, etc...I hope this does not sound bitter or sad. I've thought of this before and every single time, I just push it away. But let's face it, it's the same thing when it comes to relationships. No one's ever too busy to call/text. The real question is whether you are on their priority list or not. I am the kind of person where one good erases a thousand bad. Lol. It's funny. It's just that I am really now understanding what a true friend is. I've called a couple lately because I really needed a friend. And they did not bother to even call back, especially since I am not the kind of person to call very often. But, what really got to me was when I realized that I was the same kind of friend. I did not always make a great effort at staying in touch. I am getting better, but I am still not there yet. I don't expect for people to want to talk to me every day or even every week. But I've realized that I could be in the hospital for two or three months and some people would not even know it. And when we did talk, some of them never even asked what was going on in my life just about what was going on in theirs. And there are some who only contact me when they need something. Here's the question: Are these people friends or acquaintances?
Don't get me wrong, I am also realizing the error of my ways and have been getting much better at staying in touch with people, even if it's a simple text. I hope to become a better friend to my friends.
I just realized that there are just certain friends who are always there for me (Mika and Michelle are my best examples) whether it's convenient for them or not. With these people I am able to be myself, I know I can call and they will respond within a reasonable period of time. They are interested in what's going on in my life. They never judge me for my wrongs, whether they agree with me or not. They make me feel like I can conquer the world. I don't need them to call me every day or even every week to know that they do think of me and love me. They've been great examples to me on what friends really are and really do. I've tried to fix my behavior as a friend because of the kind of examples they set. I love them so much!
I have many friends that I make excuses all the time for. They're too busy right now, they are just free spirited, they have way too many friends to think about me once every three months, etc...I hope this does not sound bitter or sad. I've thought of this before and every single time, I just push it away. But let's face it, it's the same thing when it comes to relationships. No one's ever too busy to call/text. The real question is whether you are on their priority list or not. I am the kind of person where one good erases a thousand bad. Lol. It's funny. It's just that I am really now understanding what a true friend is. I've called a couple lately because I really needed a friend. And they did not bother to even call back, especially since I am not the kind of person to call very often. But, what really got to me was when I realized that I was the same kind of friend. I did not always make a great effort at staying in touch. I am getting better, but I am still not there yet. I don't expect for people to want to talk to me every day or even every week. But I've realized that I could be in the hospital for two or three months and some people would not even know it. And when we did talk, some of them never even asked what was going on in my life just about what was going on in theirs. And there are some who only contact me when they need something. Here's the question: Are these people friends or acquaintances?
Don't get me wrong, I am also realizing the error of my ways and have been getting much better at staying in touch with people, even if it's a simple text. I hope to become a better friend to my friends.
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