Susan Boyle

I know everyone has been blogging about this amazing woman, but I had to add my two cents. Wow! When a friend showed me the youtube video of her yesterday, I had heard of her but did not really care or understand anything about her. Watching her yesterday I realized so many things.

1.) It's never too late to fulfill your dreams.
2.) Never judge a book by it's cover.
3.) Especially when that cover is being judged by a standard that is stupid and pointless. What is true beauty?
4.) What true presence is. That lady has amazing stage presence.
5.) All laughed at her, but she did not look phased by it. Does it really matter who laughs at you? Because in the end, you could be the one who has the last laugh. Or who brings all those who are laughing to tears of pleasure and astonishment.

There's so much more that I came to realize. I was astounded and amazed by her. To be honest, as I watched and heard her sing, I laughed and joked with my friend, but all I wanted to do was cry. I was profoundly touched. As she sang, the beauty of her voice ripped the worldly film which had coated my eyes to the point that, for a moment, I could not see the beauty which she possessed.

Please watch her here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it...

Flowers are blooming, birds are chirping, the sky is beautiful and clear...Okay so it's still snowy, cold, and overcast, but this is how my heart feels right now. What's caused this sudden burst of warmth in my being? Well...This will be my last week working 7on/7off graveyard! I am so excited that I cannot even find the words to describe it. I feel like a whole new world will be opening up for me.

I feel like spring personified!

Failure to launch

Viktor (my supposed Greek god) and I have gone out once and I have cancelled five dates in between and a bit before then. Let me explain what happened on our first date.

He worked real late that day and so he asked if we could do the date after he got off work, which was around ten p.m. We went to see one of the light shows at the Imax theater. As with all things theater/cinema/stand up comedy routines, not much talking happened. Afterwards we wondered around for fifteen minutes or so trying to get to know each other, but it was real late.

These are the things I found out about him:
-From California (of Mexican origin)
-Very close to his mother and brother (both live in California)
-Works everyday but Sunday
-Wishes to go to med school one day
-Extremely kind, courteous (very much the gentleman)

How I felt:
-NOTHING! All the chemistry I felt at the beginning was gone. I'm not even sure why I felt it. I was very saddened and disappointed. But, I decided perhaps I was just being weird and so, we will have a second date because I did enjoy my first date with him and he really is a sweet guy.

This is the kind of advice I have been getting from friends so far:

"Laureen, you have to stop thinking like a guy. The chemistry is not usually going to happen instantaneously. To a woman, that is connected to her emotions. If you only go on one date, you're emotions are not involved and so there will be no chemistry."

"He was nervous for his first date, give him a chance."

"Your problem is that you're looking for Mr. Perfect and there is no such creature."

...The frustration! What am I to do? How to rectify my attitude? Or is it just that I'm just picky? Or that what I want, truly want, has just not walked through the door yet?

My Greek god

Okay, so we've spoken a couple of times (my Greek god and I). Unfortunately, I've had to bail out on him twice on the first date we were suppose to have (work/family things). But I can't begin to tell you how much I enjoy talking to this kid, so far. Of course, as most men do, he is putting his best foot forward right not. But I am enjoying that foot. Last time we spoke, he said to me, "You are even better than I imagined you would be." Cupid might as well had been across the room sending darts into my heart. Wow, what a great thing to say. I melted.
It's kind of interesting that I feel that, lately, most of the boys I've been with or have thought about being with give me a lot of backhanded compliments or just make me feel unsure of myself. Not in this case. It has been a nice change. Even if this goes nowhere, it's been nice to feel this way again. I'm excited to finally go out with him. It's too bad that we have such hard schedules to mesh :( Hopefully it will be worth it when we finally do :)

Decisions, decisions, decisions...

Sorry it's been a while since I posted. It sometimes gets discouraging when not a lot of people comment on my blog. It's always good to get feedback. Although I know many of you say you read it but just don't comment. It's okay, but it still gets a bit discouraging :( But don't worry, I am not going to let that stop me because I LOVE to write. And I write here for myself and not just for others :)

On to better things. I have been struggling lately with some decisions that I have to make. I am not quite there yet, but almost. I am not sure I'm looking forward to what the final result of my decision is turning out to be :( As soon as I make it, I will let you know.

Greek gods

I was at a Greek restaurant with my sister today. And as soon as I met the waiter, I was attracted. I thought he was kind, funny, and cute (okay, more like a god according to my response to his pheromones). But I did not give it much thought. And when he left, I told my sister that I thought he was cute. Well, later on he brings us our food and I was not feeling to well, so I just smiled a little. Well, as my sister and I were eating, she picked up the receipt and lo and behold, he had written his phone number on it and said "call me." We were dying with laughter, but in a good way. I was way impressed with his subtle boldness. What do you think I'm going to do? I know many of my friends who check out my blog are horrible at commenting. Well, this is your chance. I can now erase something from my before I die to do list ;)

On the phone with a guy

A guy I am talking to on the phone right now just said, "You know what I love about you, Laureen? Your flirtiness. It's sassy,fun, and makes me feel special at the same time. I could spend a long time in your company." Wow. Yes, I am definitely enjoying the phone call ;)