Thursday, April 21, 2011
Who would have thought
Classes are crazy, I am tired all the time, the commuting sucks with all the constructions on the freeway, I've been getting less sleep than ever, and yet I could not be more happy than I am right now.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Dancing
With all the busyness of life and school, I feel profoundly this emptiness in my life that I just want to rectify. I am talking about dancing. I absolutely love to dance! I feel so sad that I have not been able to have the time to take classes. I try to go to the gym at least about 3x a week. And I try to make 2 of those days a Zumba day. Unfortunately, just getting those days in this semester has been a trial. I NEED to go to those classes. But I want more than that, I want to do Ballet and Jazz on top of Latin dancing.
There is something about being able to dance that makes me feel so happy. And as if all the stress I have experienced up to that point are flying off my body. I JUST WANT TO DANCE. I am determined to come up with some plan so that I am getting it at least twice a week (because I have not been able to in the last 2 months). I will be going tonight, I'll try to describe how I feel when I come home.
There is something about being able to dance that makes me feel so happy. And as if all the stress I have experienced up to that point are flying off my body. I JUST WANT TO DANCE. I am determined to come up with some plan so that I am getting it at least twice a week (because I have not been able to in the last 2 months). I will be going tonight, I'll try to describe how I feel when I come home.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Friendship
There has been so much going on! I had an aunt and uncle (siblings) die within a month of each other in unrelated causes. I am still enjoying my master's program. Enjoying getting to know new people. Working a lot. Spending time with my family. And realizing who my true friends are.
I just realized that there are just certain friends who are always there for me (Mika and Michelle are my best examples) whether it's convenient for them or not. With these people I am able to be myself, I know I can call and they will respond within a reasonable period of time. They are interested in what's going on in my life. They never judge me for my wrongs, whether they agree with me or not. They make me feel like I can conquer the world. I don't need them to call me every day or even every week to know that they do think of me and love me. They've been great examples to me on what friends really are and really do. I've tried to fix my behavior as a friend because of the kind of examples they set. I love them so much!
I have many friends that I make excuses all the time for. They're too busy right now, they are just free spirited, they have way too many friends to think about me once every three months, etc...I hope this does not sound bitter or sad. I've thought of this before and every single time, I just push it away. But let's face it, it's the same thing when it comes to relationships. No one's ever too busy to call/text. The real question is whether you are on their priority list or not. I am the kind of person where one good erases a thousand bad. Lol. It's funny. It's just that I am really now understanding what a true friend is. I've called a couple lately because I really needed a friend. And they did not bother to even call back, especially since I am not the kind of person to call very often. But, what really got to me was when I realized that I was the same kind of friend. I did not always make a great effort at staying in touch. I am getting better, but I am still not there yet. I don't expect for people to want to talk to me every day or even every week. But I've realized that I could be in the hospital for two or three months and some people would not even know it. And when we did talk, some of them never even asked what was going on in my life just about what was going on in theirs. And there are some who only contact me when they need something. Here's the question: Are these people friends or acquaintances?
Don't get me wrong, I am also realizing the error of my ways and have been getting much better at staying in touch with people, even if it's a simple text. I hope to become a better friend to my friends.
I just realized that there are just certain friends who are always there for me (Mika and Michelle are my best examples) whether it's convenient for them or not. With these people I am able to be myself, I know I can call and they will respond within a reasonable period of time. They are interested in what's going on in my life. They never judge me for my wrongs, whether they agree with me or not. They make me feel like I can conquer the world. I don't need them to call me every day or even every week to know that they do think of me and love me. They've been great examples to me on what friends really are and really do. I've tried to fix my behavior as a friend because of the kind of examples they set. I love them so much!
I have many friends that I make excuses all the time for. They're too busy right now, they are just free spirited, they have way too many friends to think about me once every three months, etc...I hope this does not sound bitter or sad. I've thought of this before and every single time, I just push it away. But let's face it, it's the same thing when it comes to relationships. No one's ever too busy to call/text. The real question is whether you are on their priority list or not. I am the kind of person where one good erases a thousand bad. Lol. It's funny. It's just that I am really now understanding what a true friend is. I've called a couple lately because I really needed a friend. And they did not bother to even call back, especially since I am not the kind of person to call very often. But, what really got to me was when I realized that I was the same kind of friend. I did not always make a great effort at staying in touch. I am getting better, but I am still not there yet. I don't expect for people to want to talk to me every day or even every week. But I've realized that I could be in the hospital for two or three months and some people would not even know it. And when we did talk, some of them never even asked what was going on in my life just about what was going on in theirs. And there are some who only contact me when they need something. Here's the question: Are these people friends or acquaintances?
Don't get me wrong, I am also realizing the error of my ways and have been getting much better at staying in touch with people, even if it's a simple text. I hope to become a better friend to my friends.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Over 24 hours of no sleep/Meditation
I had a huge exam today and, unfortunately, was only able to study for it for 2 hours last week. I was in quite the state this week trying to get a presentation done and study for this exam. I finished my presentation yesterday (which is when I had to give it) and that was when I was able to study for my exam. I have not slept in over 24 hours studying for it. I felt wide awake when I took my exam this afternoon, which I was not sure I would be. I expected to have crashed already. But now I think the thrill of being done with it is still keeping me up.
On a different note, I've realized lately just how important it is to meditate. Everything around us is so noisy. And we keep ourselves constantly occupied. When do we get the chance to commune with ourselves and with our Father in Heaven? I am really bad at taking time to just ponder. But I am trying to make it a goal to do this at least a little bit every day. We'll see how it'll go :-)
On a different note, I've realized lately just how important it is to meditate. Everything around us is so noisy. And we keep ourselves constantly occupied. When do we get the chance to commune with ourselves and with our Father in Heaven? I am really bad at taking time to just ponder. But I am trying to make it a goal to do this at least a little bit every day. We'll see how it'll go :-)
Monday, October 4, 2010
The miracle of life
My aunt suffered a stroke last weekend and it was tough. For a while, we did not think she would make it. I was constantly going back and fourth between school, work, and the hospital. And I was sleeping over the hospital, which is not a very restful place to be. I think I got about six hours of sleep all together last week. My sister was doing the same thing. She was going back in fourth between her family, school, business, research, and the hospital (this woman truly astounds me with all the things she can do). It was a busy week for us, but it was definitely worth it. To see my aunt's face light up when we came in the room (even when she could not move much). Family really does play a big part in helping their love ones heal. And when The doctor found out that this was her sixth stroke, we cried. Sixth stroke! I am not sure I would have survived a first one. What an amazingly strong woman to have survived those. And the miracle is, she is doing much, much better. She is also regaining strength on the right side of her body, as well as her speech. She went home today from the hospital. I LOVE MIRACLES!
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Dating through text
I have nothing really exciting going on. School and work pretty much occupy my time. Well...maybe not ALL my time. I have made a commitment to myself to be as social as possible. And I have to admit that I have done pretty well at this...for now :)
I made a goal to go on at least one date a week. And so far so good. Last weekend, I was in way above my head. These three guys were texting me about dates and I had already fallen asleep by the time they text me. Well, I woke up and said yes to all three. Yes...for the same night! Well, you can't blame me too much, people. I was half asleep! I ended up cancelling all of them. But honestly, why are these guys waiting until the last minute to ask for a date?! They wanted to go out the next night. AND what is up with them TEXTING me about it? An old fashioned phone call is all I am asking. To be honest, my interest in them waned a bit after this. I am still going on a date with them, but I am not that excited. It's sad because they are all nice boys. I told them that they needed to plan ahead of schedule next time and then I would have the time.
Am I being too picky or unreasonable?
I made a goal to go on at least one date a week. And so far so good. Last weekend, I was in way above my head. These three guys were texting me about dates and I had already fallen asleep by the time they text me. Well, I woke up and said yes to all three. Yes...for the same night! Well, you can't blame me too much, people. I was half asleep! I ended up cancelling all of them. But honestly, why are these guys waiting until the last minute to ask for a date?! They wanted to go out the next night. AND what is up with them TEXTING me about it? An old fashioned phone call is all I am asking. To be honest, my interest in them waned a bit after this. I am still going on a date with them, but I am not that excited. It's sad because they are all nice boys. I told them that they needed to plan ahead of schedule next time and then I would have the time.
Am I being too picky or unreasonable?
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