Art Show:
The Many Faces of Art
@ The Sugar Space (located in Sugarhouse, Ut)
on Friday May 31st, 2013
7pm.-9pm
Artistic performances are featured throughout the night. It sounds like it will be a blast!
Friday, May 10, 2013
Thursday, April 11, 2013
The New Year's Resolution I Never Made But Should
This New Year was different from the previous ones. Usually, I set goals of things I want to achieve or habits I want to get rid of. This year, I was having way too much fun and was way too tired to come up with anything. But as I have been thinking about it for the last three months or so, I've realized that although I don't always keep my goals it is still important that I make them. I decided to try something a little different. This time, not only am I making goals, but I am going to try to write down in this blog what I am doing daily to reach them. I am going to attempt to focus on them one at a time and keep them realistic. I believe my usual problem is that I try to achieve everything all at once and become frustrated and tired. I want this year to be different. I read somewhere that if I used the acronym "SMART" (Specific, Meaningful, Attainable, Relevant, and Timely) I would more likely meet my goals. I have set my goals using this acronym. My goals for this year are:
HOW and WHAT CAN I DO to make them come true:
- Buy a home in the next 3 to 6 months.
- Become healthier through exercise and diet (lose one to two pounds per week then maintain). Become a healthier me by end of June or beginning of July.
- Become a better piano player in the next 3 months.
- Start own business by beginning of summer.
- Write in blog once or twice a week (everyday would be better so I am more likely to attempt to execute my goals daily.)
- Work on secret dream (sorry guys, I'm not sure yet I want to share what this is).
- Take a trip out of state with Darian by end of summer.
- Have multiple income by December 31st.
- Each week, take the time to reflect on how much closer I am to my goal than I was the week before and change goals/daily actions in accordance.
- Read one book a month that is recommended to me outside my usual genre.
HOW and WHAT CAN I DO to make them come true:
- I'm still thinking about this one, I have a few ideas but still need to narrow them down. I am open to suggestions.
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Past post revisited
This is a post I wrote in December of 2008
Pros and Cons
The pros and cons of working graveyard.
Pros: -I can't stand having to get up early Monday mornings after a wonderful weekend.
-ummm...I know there was more. I will have to think of it on my day off.
Cons: -Miss all the wonderful social activities at night when most people are clocked out of work.
-Go to sleep in the dark and wake up in the dark (at least in the winter).
-The human body was just not meant to work that way (what with cortisol levels and all). Even when you sleep well doing the day, you're still tired during the night.
I guess I can't make this list as impartially as I would like to since it's 0242 in the morning and I am at work ans still have three and a half hours to go
This is still all true. And it is again around 0236 in the morning as I am writing this at work. Maybe I should try writing this list when I am off and not tired?
Pros and Cons
The pros and cons of working graveyard.
Pros: -I can't stand having to get up early Monday mornings after a wonderful weekend.
-ummm...I know there was more. I will have to think of it on my day off.
Cons: -Miss all the wonderful social activities at night when most people are clocked out of work.
-Go to sleep in the dark and wake up in the dark (at least in the winter).
-The human body was just not meant to work that way (what with cortisol levels and all). Even when you sleep well doing the day, you're still tired during the night.
I guess I can't make this list as impartially as I would like to since it's 0242 in the morning and I am at work ans still have three and a half hours to go
This is still all true. And it is again around 0236 in the morning as I am writing this at work. Maybe I should try writing this list when I am off and not tired?
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Revisiting past desires
Back in December of 2008 , I wrote this blog post:
What my ad for a man would look like
Wanted:
Fun loving (playful)-sense of humor (I need someone who can and will make me laugh)
Affectionate/Loving***
Lover of books, music, and movies (foreign films a must)
Faithful
Considerate
Easy going/Does not loose their temper easily*****THIS IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT TO ME.
Likes/Loves to dance (this is a hard one since most guys I know don't fulfill this. Ironic considering the pheromones flying around when dancing is involved. How can man not want to participate in this ritual?)
Intelligent (but not cocky about it)/curious
Not afraid to try things
Ambitious
Creative
Doesn't care what others think (besides, of course, me)/Doesn't need to prove himself.
Allows me to express myself w/o making me feel judged, embarrassed, or silly
Selfless
***Someone who I can be myself around****
Patient/Not easily angered***
Passionate
Okay, so far that's my list. And again, since it is 3:25 in the morning, I know I am forgetting a few things. I will have to add those later. Even though I have some stars next to some but not next to others, that does not mean the others are not very important to me. The stared items just happen to be things that I have had recent experience with and have realized just how dear they are. I don't know, hard to explain. Anyone who has any inputs please let me know. I'm curious about what might be on you guy's list. Having recently been married (a little over six months but have been dating for the last two years), I would like to comment on what kind of man I find myself with. Does he measure up to my list ? or is he lacking? Let's start in the order I had previously listed. Fun loving (playful)-sense of humor (I need someone who can and will make me laugh)
Humor is very important to my guy. He does comedy improv on the side and he is fantastic. He has me laughing night and day.
Affectionate/Loving***
There is not a time when I am next to Darian that he does not reach over to give me some form of physical affection (hug, quick touch, etc...). And there is not a time when he does not give me the words of affirmation that I need. He is physically and emotionally loving.
Lover of books, music, and movies (foreign films a must)
He loves books, music, and movies (including foreign films). We don't always like the same things, but what's important to me is that he likes them. Sometimes we'll read together, even if it's from different books and we are just sitting next to each other.
Faithful
He is in both action and heart. Too honest and too sincere to be otherwise.
Considerate
I work the graveyard shift and often come home tired and hungry. Sometimes when I get home, I find that my honey had woken up early and left me breakfast before he headed off to work. I cannot describe how it makes me feel.
Easy going/Does not lose their temper easily*****THIS IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT TO ME.
Darian is so calm that he helps me bridle my own temper. It's EXTREMELY hard to get him to lose his temper.
Likes/Loves to dance (this is a hard one since most guys I know don't fulfill this. Ironic considering the pheromones flying around when dancing is involved. How can man not want to participate in this ritual?)
This is one is a little tricky. He does not like to dance in the exact way that I do. He likes the Waltz, ballet and other traditional dances. I like those dances too, but am very passionate about Latin dancing. Even though he does not get as excited as I do about the kind of dancing I like to do, he is always willing to take me dancing.
Intelligent (but not cocky about it)/curious
Graduated with a degree in Mathematics. Need I say more?
Not afraid to try things
The only thing he refuses to try is blood sausages.
Ambitious
Currently owns a business and plans on owning more in the futures. Plans to retire early.
Creative
Draws, sings, creates amazing things with origami, comes up with some fun and interesting dates. He does creative things all the time.
Doesn't care what others think (besides, of course, me)/Doesn't need to prove himself.
Sometimes I have to say, "Love, don't do/say that. What will people think?" And he'll usually answer by telling me "But that's how I feel." or "But that's what I think." I love the fact that he is always himself no matter who is around. It's ironic that not caring what other people think/say is on my list and yet I'm the one who has to work on it.
Allows me to express myself w/o making me feel judged, embarrassed, or silly
I have grown so much because (and this is going to sound corny and silly) he gives me wings to fly. I feel much more confident in myself as a person because he encourages me to be myself no matter what. Although sometimes I think he must regret it ;-)
Selfless
One night, he was helping me relax my hair. It didn't not work out the way I had planned. He stayed up until 2:30 in the morning helping me to get it to look the way I wanted without a word of complaint, although he had to get up at 6am for work. I felt terrible that he did this, but completely moved at the sacrifice he was willing to make for me.
***Someone who I can be myself around****
See above comment under "Allows me to express myself w/o making me feel judged, embarrassed, or silly.
Patient/Not easily angered***
I don't think we would have worked out as a couple if he was not patient. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I don't think relationships work w/o patience. Darian's patience with me also help me know I can be myself around him.
Passionate
Yes!
Darian is not perfect. Neither am I. But I think we are a pretty good match. When we were dating, I was very good at looking at his flaws. I wanted to marry with my eyes wide open. I had seen too many bad marriages and was afraid to make a mistake in whom I ended up marrying. For a long time, I was afraid to give my heart because I did not want to be blinded by love. Unfortunately, I think I focused on the flaws way too much and almost lost an amazing man who was perfect for me. As I was reading this list, I was surprised that I could answer yes to the qualities I put there. My list has changed often throughout the years, but when I wrote this one, I made sure that it covered the core of qualities that I knew would make me happy. I looked at previous list I had made the years before and narrowed it down to the ones that kept repeating. It's good to know I was right or that I knew myself well enough to know what could make me happy in the end.
We are not perfect as a couple. At times we frustrate or sadden each other, but at the end of the day there is no one else I would rather go home to. And at the end of the day if someone asks me if I am happy, I can honestly answer a resounding "Yes."
What my ad for a man would look like
Wanted:
Fun loving (playful)-sense of humor (I need someone who can and will make me laugh)
Affectionate/Loving***
Lover of books, music, and movies (foreign films a must)
Faithful
Considerate
Easy going/Does not loose their temper easily*****THIS IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT TO ME.
Likes/Loves to dance (this is a hard one since most guys I know don't fulfill this. Ironic considering the pheromones flying around when dancing is involved. How can man not want to participate in this ritual?)
Intelligent (but not cocky about it)/curious
Not afraid to try things
Ambitious
Creative
Doesn't care what others think (besides, of course, me)/Doesn't need to prove himself.
Allows me to express myself w/o making me feel judged, embarrassed, or silly
Selfless
***Someone who I can be myself around****
Patient/Not easily angered***
Passionate
Okay, so far that's my list. And again, since it is 3:25 in the morning, I know I am forgetting a few things. I will have to add those later. Even though I have some stars next to some but not next to others, that does not mean the others are not very important to me. The stared items just happen to be things that I have had recent experience with and have realized just how dear they are. I don't know, hard to explain. Anyone who has any inputs please let me know. I'm curious about what might be on you guy's list. Having recently been married (a little over six months but have been dating for the last two years), I would like to comment on what kind of man I find myself with. Does he measure up to my list ? or is he lacking? Let's start in the order I had previously listed. Fun loving (playful)-sense of humor (I need someone who can and will make me laugh)
Humor is very important to my guy. He does comedy improv on the side and he is fantastic. He has me laughing night and day.
Affectionate/Loving***
There is not a time when I am next to Darian that he does not reach over to give me some form of physical affection (hug, quick touch, etc...). And there is not a time when he does not give me the words of affirmation that I need. He is physically and emotionally loving.
Lover of books, music, and movies (foreign films a must)
He loves books, music, and movies (including foreign films). We don't always like the same things, but what's important to me is that he likes them. Sometimes we'll read together, even if it's from different books and we are just sitting next to each other.
Faithful
He is in both action and heart. Too honest and too sincere to be otherwise.
Considerate
I work the graveyard shift and often come home tired and hungry. Sometimes when I get home, I find that my honey had woken up early and left me breakfast before he headed off to work. I cannot describe how it makes me feel.
Easy going/Does not lose their temper easily*****THIS IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT TO ME.
Darian is so calm that he helps me bridle my own temper. It's EXTREMELY hard to get him to lose his temper.
Likes/Loves to dance (this is a hard one since most guys I know don't fulfill this. Ironic considering the pheromones flying around when dancing is involved. How can man not want to participate in this ritual?)
This is one is a little tricky. He does not like to dance in the exact way that I do. He likes the Waltz, ballet and other traditional dances. I like those dances too, but am very passionate about Latin dancing. Even though he does not get as excited as I do about the kind of dancing I like to do, he is always willing to take me dancing.
Intelligent (but not cocky about it)/curious
Graduated with a degree in Mathematics. Need I say more?
Not afraid to try things
The only thing he refuses to try is blood sausages.
Ambitious
Currently owns a business and plans on owning more in the futures. Plans to retire early.
Creative
Draws, sings, creates amazing things with origami, comes up with some fun and interesting dates. He does creative things all the time.
Doesn't care what others think (besides, of course, me)/Doesn't need to prove himself.
Sometimes I have to say, "Love, don't do/say that. What will people think?" And he'll usually answer by telling me "But that's how I feel." or "But that's what I think." I love the fact that he is always himself no matter who is around. It's ironic that not caring what other people think/say is on my list and yet I'm the one who has to work on it.
Allows me to express myself w/o making me feel judged, embarrassed, or silly
I have grown so much because (and this is going to sound corny and silly) he gives me wings to fly. I feel much more confident in myself as a person because he encourages me to be myself no matter what. Although sometimes I think he must regret it ;-)
Selfless
One night, he was helping me relax my hair. It didn't not work out the way I had planned. He stayed up until 2:30 in the morning helping me to get it to look the way I wanted without a word of complaint, although he had to get up at 6am for work. I felt terrible that he did this, but completely moved at the sacrifice he was willing to make for me.
***Someone who I can be myself around****
See above comment under "Allows me to express myself w/o making me feel judged, embarrassed, or silly.
Patient/Not easily angered***
I don't think we would have worked out as a couple if he was not patient. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I don't think relationships work w/o patience. Darian's patience with me also help me know I can be myself around him.
Passionate
Yes!
Darian is not perfect. Neither am I. But I think we are a pretty good match. When we were dating, I was very good at looking at his flaws. I wanted to marry with my eyes wide open. I had seen too many bad marriages and was afraid to make a mistake in whom I ended up marrying. For a long time, I was afraid to give my heart because I did not want to be blinded by love. Unfortunately, I think I focused on the flaws way too much and almost lost an amazing man who was perfect for me. As I was reading this list, I was surprised that I could answer yes to the qualities I put there. My list has changed often throughout the years, but when I wrote this one, I made sure that it covered the core of qualities that I knew would make me happy. I looked at previous list I had made the years before and narrowed it down to the ones that kept repeating. It's good to know I was right or that I knew myself well enough to know what could make me happy in the end.
We are not perfect as a couple. At times we frustrate or sadden each other, but at the end of the day there is no one else I would rather go home to. And at the end of the day if someone asks me if I am happy, I can honestly answer a resounding "Yes."
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Pinterest!
I am a big fan of pinterest! Finding that website has changed so much of my life. It sounds silly to say something like that but it has. I utilized it to find ideas when I was planning my wedding and boy did it make planning easier. I've used it to decorate my house, cook some delicious meals, find some great date and activity ideas. My nieces have loved some of the things we've done from that website. But most importantly, I've used it to boost my own creativity and to find and admire the creativity of others . If you guys have not checked it out yet, I would strongly advise you to. Here's the link
Pinterest.com
Have fun pinning!
Pinterest.com
Have fun pinning!
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Slacker
As I look at my friends' blogs and the amazing jobs they do with them. I cannot help but feel like a slacker. Not that I only experience negative emotions when I visit their blogs :-) I also feel inspired. And more motivated to do better with my own blog. I guess I am still wary about the kind of information to put and so I don't put anything at all. My goal for this month is to write at least one more time in this blog before the month is over. Baby steps, right?
Sunday, July 15, 2012
New Place
It has been strange but wonderful living in our new place. It's just me living there for now and then Darian will move in once we are married in August. It's so strange decorating our place, but making sure for both of us to make decisions about how we want it. I am so used to just making these decisions by myself. It's definitely a growing experience. But I like it so much more when I look around and realize that we were decorating our FIRST home together. This is the beginning of a journey that I am excited to travel!
Saturday, June 23, 2012
What's new
I'm getting married! His name is Darian and he is absolutely one of the kindest, funniest, loving, gentle, and most amazing man that I have ever met. I feel extremely lucky. Planning is insane since my wedding is in August. But, as I've been adviced a lot lately, I am trying to enjoy the journey. And boy, what a journey!
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Manelle Oliphant Illustration: 200 = a giveaway
Manelle Oliphant Illustration: 200 = a giveaway: This is my 200th blog post. Ta Da! To celebrate, and to get to my 200th blog follower I'm hosting another giveaway. Cool right. The pr...
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Gratitude
I sometimes forget how great life is. I take advantage of my health, education, career, family, and friends. I sometimes feel that we dwell too much on the negative things we have experienced; on the things that we do not have; on the things that people have said to us. The one bad thing we experience in one day overwhelmes all the great things we experienced that whole week. I am amazingly grateful for those moments when I am reminded in one way or another that life is good. It is a gift to enjoy. It is the kind of gift that only gets better with re gifting. When I meet or hear of people who have suffered things that I cannot even imagine, and yet remain hopeful, upbeat, loving, kind, giving, and energetic, I am humbled.
"I complained that I had no shoes until I met a man who had no feet." -- Persian proverb
"No individual has any right to come into the world and go out of it without leaving behind him distinct and legitimate reasons for having passed through it." -- George Washington Carver
"Each time a man stands up for an ideal or acts to improve the lot of others or strikes out against injustice, he sends forth a tiny ripple of hope and, crossing each other from a million different centers of energy and daring, those ripples build a current that can sweep down the mightiest walls of oppression and resistance." -- Robert F. Kennedy
"I complained that I had no shoes until I met a man who had no feet." -- Persian proverb
"No individual has any right to come into the world and go out of it without leaving behind him distinct and legitimate reasons for having passed through it." -- George Washington Carver
"Each time a man stands up for an ideal or acts to improve the lot of others or strikes out against injustice, he sends forth a tiny ripple of hope and, crossing each other from a million different centers of energy and daring, those ripples build a current that can sweep down the mightiest walls of oppression and resistance." -- Robert F. Kennedy
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Who would have thought
Classes are crazy, I am tired all the time, the commuting sucks with all the constructions on the freeway, I've been getting less sleep than ever, and yet I could not be more happy than I am right now.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Dancing
With all the busyness of life and school, I feel profoundly this emptiness in my life that I just want to rectify. I am talking about dancing. I absolutely love to dance! I feel so sad that I have not been able to have the time to take classes. I try to go to the gym at least about 3x a week. And I try to make 2 of those days a Zumba day. Unfortunately, just getting those days in this semester has been a trial. I NEED to go to those classes. But I want more than that, I want to do Ballet and Jazz on top of Latin dancing.
There is something about being able to dance that makes me feel so happy. And as if all the stress I have experienced up to that point are flying off my body. I JUST WANT TO DANCE. I am determined to come up with some plan so that I am getting it at least twice a week (because I have not been able to in the last 2 months). I will be going tonight, I'll try to describe how I feel when I come home.
There is something about being able to dance that makes me feel so happy. And as if all the stress I have experienced up to that point are flying off my body. I JUST WANT TO DANCE. I am determined to come up with some plan so that I am getting it at least twice a week (because I have not been able to in the last 2 months). I will be going tonight, I'll try to describe how I feel when I come home.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Friendship
There has been so much going on! I had an aunt and uncle (siblings) die within a month of each other in unrelated causes. I am still enjoying my master's program. Enjoying getting to know new people. Working a lot. Spending time with my family. And realizing who my true friends are.
I just realized that there are just certain friends who are always there for me (Mika and Michelle are my best examples) whether it's convenient for them or not. With these people I am able to be myself, I know I can call and they will respond within a reasonable period of time. They are interested in what's going on in my life. They never judge me for my wrongs, whether they agree with me or not. They make me feel like I can conquer the world. I don't need them to call me every day or even every week to know that they do think of me and love me. They've been great examples to me on what friends really are and really do. I've tried to fix my behavior as a friend because of the kind of examples they set. I love them so much!
I have many friends that I make excuses all the time for. They're too busy right now, they are just free spirited, they have way too many friends to think about me once every three months, etc...I hope this does not sound bitter or sad. I've thought of this before and every single time, I just push it away. But let's face it, it's the same thing when it comes to relationships. No one's ever too busy to call/text. The real question is whether you are on their priority list or not. I am the kind of person where one good erases a thousand bad. Lol. It's funny. It's just that I am really now understanding what a true friend is. I've called a couple lately because I really needed a friend. And they did not bother to even call back, especially since I am not the kind of person to call very often. But, what really got to me was when I realized that I was the same kind of friend. I did not always make a great effort at staying in touch. I am getting better, but I am still not there yet. I don't expect for people to want to talk to me every day or even every week. But I've realized that I could be in the hospital for two or three months and some people would not even know it. And when we did talk, some of them never even asked what was going on in my life just about what was going on in theirs. And there are some who only contact me when they need something. Here's the question: Are these people friends or acquaintances?
Don't get me wrong, I am also realizing the error of my ways and have been getting much better at staying in touch with people, even if it's a simple text. I hope to become a better friend to my friends.
I just realized that there are just certain friends who are always there for me (Mika and Michelle are my best examples) whether it's convenient for them or not. With these people I am able to be myself, I know I can call and they will respond within a reasonable period of time. They are interested in what's going on in my life. They never judge me for my wrongs, whether they agree with me or not. They make me feel like I can conquer the world. I don't need them to call me every day or even every week to know that they do think of me and love me. They've been great examples to me on what friends really are and really do. I've tried to fix my behavior as a friend because of the kind of examples they set. I love them so much!
I have many friends that I make excuses all the time for. They're too busy right now, they are just free spirited, they have way too many friends to think about me once every three months, etc...I hope this does not sound bitter or sad. I've thought of this before and every single time, I just push it away. But let's face it, it's the same thing when it comes to relationships. No one's ever too busy to call/text. The real question is whether you are on their priority list or not. I am the kind of person where one good erases a thousand bad. Lol. It's funny. It's just that I am really now understanding what a true friend is. I've called a couple lately because I really needed a friend. And they did not bother to even call back, especially since I am not the kind of person to call very often. But, what really got to me was when I realized that I was the same kind of friend. I did not always make a great effort at staying in touch. I am getting better, but I am still not there yet. I don't expect for people to want to talk to me every day or even every week. But I've realized that I could be in the hospital for two or three months and some people would not even know it. And when we did talk, some of them never even asked what was going on in my life just about what was going on in theirs. And there are some who only contact me when they need something. Here's the question: Are these people friends or acquaintances?
Don't get me wrong, I am also realizing the error of my ways and have been getting much better at staying in touch with people, even if it's a simple text. I hope to become a better friend to my friends.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Over 24 hours of no sleep/Meditation
I had a huge exam today and, unfortunately, was only able to study for it for 2 hours last week. I was in quite the state this week trying to get a presentation done and study for this exam. I finished my presentation yesterday (which is when I had to give it) and that was when I was able to study for my exam. I have not slept in over 24 hours studying for it. I felt wide awake when I took my exam this afternoon, which I was not sure I would be. I expected to have crashed already. But now I think the thrill of being done with it is still keeping me up.
On a different note, I've realized lately just how important it is to meditate. Everything around us is so noisy. And we keep ourselves constantly occupied. When do we get the chance to commune with ourselves and with our Father in Heaven? I am really bad at taking time to just ponder. But I am trying to make it a goal to do this at least a little bit every day. We'll see how it'll go :-)
On a different note, I've realized lately just how important it is to meditate. Everything around us is so noisy. And we keep ourselves constantly occupied. When do we get the chance to commune with ourselves and with our Father in Heaven? I am really bad at taking time to just ponder. But I am trying to make it a goal to do this at least a little bit every day. We'll see how it'll go :-)
Monday, October 4, 2010
The miracle of life
My aunt suffered a stroke last weekend and it was tough. For a while, we did not think she would make it. I was constantly going back and fourth between school, work, and the hospital. And I was sleeping over the hospital, which is not a very restful place to be. I think I got about six hours of sleep all together last week. My sister was doing the same thing. She was going back in fourth between her family, school, business, research, and the hospital (this woman truly astounds me with all the things she can do). It was a busy week for us, but it was definitely worth it. To see my aunt's face light up when we came in the room (even when she could not move much). Family really does play a big part in helping their love ones heal. And when The doctor found out that this was her sixth stroke, we cried. Sixth stroke! I am not sure I would have survived a first one. What an amazingly strong woman to have survived those. And the miracle is, she is doing much, much better. She is also regaining strength on the right side of her body, as well as her speech. She went home today from the hospital. I LOVE MIRACLES!
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Dating through text
I have nothing really exciting going on. School and work pretty much occupy my time. Well...maybe not ALL my time. I have made a commitment to myself to be as social as possible. And I have to admit that I have done pretty well at this...for now :)
I made a goal to go on at least one date a week. And so far so good. Last weekend, I was in way above my head. These three guys were texting me about dates and I had already fallen asleep by the time they text me. Well, I woke up and said yes to all three. Yes...for the same night! Well, you can't blame me too much, people. I was half asleep! I ended up cancelling all of them. But honestly, why are these guys waiting until the last minute to ask for a date?! They wanted to go out the next night. AND what is up with them TEXTING me about it? An old fashioned phone call is all I am asking. To be honest, my interest in them waned a bit after this. I am still going on a date with them, but I am not that excited. It's sad because they are all nice boys. I told them that they needed to plan ahead of schedule next time and then I would have the time.
Am I being too picky or unreasonable?
I made a goal to go on at least one date a week. And so far so good. Last weekend, I was in way above my head. These three guys were texting me about dates and I had already fallen asleep by the time they text me. Well, I woke up and said yes to all three. Yes...for the same night! Well, you can't blame me too much, people. I was half asleep! I ended up cancelling all of them. But honestly, why are these guys waiting until the last minute to ask for a date?! They wanted to go out the next night. AND what is up with them TEXTING me about it? An old fashioned phone call is all I am asking. To be honest, my interest in them waned a bit after this. I am still going on a date with them, but I am not that excited. It's sad because they are all nice boys. I told them that they needed to plan ahead of schedule next time and then I would have the time.
Am I being too picky or unreasonable?
Thursday, August 26, 2010
UPDATES
I have been insanely busy for many reasons. One, I started my master's study in Pathology (or biomedical research) on Monday and until Saturday, I did not have a place to live. I was not homeless, just wanted to find a place in the same city I was going to school. Did not want to commute because I can't stand it! But luckily, I found something on Saturday close to school and moved in Sunday. I can tell my classes are going to be intense. Yet, I feel flutters of anticipation go through my body constantly. I am following the right path. My heart feels good and happy. And my mind feels as peace and stimulated.
Something else that has kept me busy is that I had family visiting from out of town and of course, I had to show them around. It was fun...and crazy. The last of them left on Sunday.
I had a relationship end recently and to be honest, I am relieved. It had dragged on much longer than it should have. Now we can both move on and find people that will make us feel happy and excited. I've made a new rule for myself. No more long distance dating. There's only so much growth a relationship can have when you only occasionally spend time together. That's twice I have tried it and twice that it has not worked out. My next one, I hope, will be close to home.
Many new chapters in my life, we'll have to see where it leads! I'll be better about keeping you posted.
Something else that has kept me busy is that I had family visiting from out of town and of course, I had to show them around. It was fun...and crazy. The last of them left on Sunday.
I had a relationship end recently and to be honest, I am relieved. It had dragged on much longer than it should have. Now we can both move on and find people that will make us feel happy and excited. I've made a new rule for myself. No more long distance dating. There's only so much growth a relationship can have when you only occasionally spend time together. That's twice I have tried it and twice that it has not worked out. My next one, I hope, will be close to home.
Many new chapters in my life, we'll have to see where it leads! I'll be better about keeping you posted.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Who would you have been?
We look back in history and often think one of two things. One, "What an amazing and brave person who did so much for..." or two, "I can't believe that anyone would do something like that, it's so..." Sometimes we think "I would/could never do that." Is that true? I could not help but wonder, who would I have been. Am I who I am today because there is a basic part of me which is unchanging. Or am I a product of my environment? I read this quote by Bruce Barton that says,
"If you have anything really valuable to contribute to the world it will come through the expression of your own personality, that single spark of divinity that sets you off and makes you different from every other living creature."
Is that spark of divinity infinite? Would Mahatma Gandhi, Nelson Mandela, Eleanor Roosevelt, Winston Churchill, Susan B. Anthony, or Martin Luther King have been who they were if they had been born at a different time or place? Well, I believe that even if they had not had the issues they had to deal with, they would have been fighters for other things. They would have stood for something whether great or small. Yes, we are a product of our environments, but that is not all of who we are. Look at this quote by Susan B. Anthony, does it sound like she is just the person she was suppose to be for the time she was born in?
"Cautious, careful people, always casting about to preserve their reputation and social standing, never can bring about a reform. Those who are really in earnest must be willing to be anything or nothing in the world's estimation, and publicly and privately, in season and out, avow their sympathy with despised and persecuted ideas and their advocates, and bear the consequences."
No one wants to be persecuted, friendless, or hurt. But there are people out there who sees things that are not right, things that needs fixing, and they are unable and unwilling to just do nothing. Could we have seen an injustice and done nothing? Who are we? Who am I? It's so easy to look back and think, "I am not that brave" or "I am not that cruel."
Now, don't get me wrong, I don't believe that Hitler and Stalin were meant to be cruel people. I believe that they had strong personalities that were willing to change things. Unfortunately for the world, they always made the wrong decisions. They used that power to hurt, submit, and commit acts of such cruelty that I cringe to think of them. My heart sorrows for those who experienced the results of those wrong and weak decisions. But it was a series of small erroneous choices that lead to the hate and violence felt by a large group of people. Who are we and who are we willing to be? What decisions would we have made? What decisions have we made?
We don't necessarily have to change the world...at least not at first. But we can change the lives of a few people around us. If we died today, what would people say about us? What would our friends and family? We can change their lives for the better. Again I ask, who are we willing to be? Our core personalities do not change, but we can change how our personalities are directed outwards. I am so hesitant and unassertive sometimes that I wonder at the decisions I would have made in the place of Martin Luther King. What decisions could I make today if I am faced with a major issue? I don't know and because of that I need to start working on the daily things I do/say now so that in the future, I can answer this question unhesitatingly.
"All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing." Edmund Burke
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Educational Progression
One day, I was listening to conference at work when suddenly the idea came to my mind that I needed to apply for my masters. I sort of laughed at the idea b/c that seems like such a waste of time to me. Why would I apply for my masters when I am going to apply to med school? But then randomly, my co-worker started talking about how she's never regretted getting her masters. I thought, "well, I better look into it." I looked at BYU and the only masters they really had in the sciences was the masters in science education. I was DEFINITELY not interested in that. I looked at UVU and their programs sucked. And so I finally looked at the U and they had a masters in pathology. I thought it was perfect! It was located in the med school. I felt like it was a program I needed to do. What a great way to prepare for med school! Around the time I was looking at that, it was the 5th or so and I saw the application deadline had been on the first. I couldn't understand it. How can I feel so guided to do somethings only for it not to work out?
Well, I felt like I needed to contact the admissions office and when I did, they said they did accept late applications but I would have to check with the department I wanted to get my master's in to be sure if THEY accepted late applicants. When I contacted them the next day, they secretary said it was too late and that letters had been sent out and I would have to wait until spring. I saw no point to waiting until spring. By then I would be done with most of my pre-med classes. But if I could start the masters in the fall, it would take me as long to finish that as it would my pre-med classes. It sounded perfect! Perfect until I found out I couldn't do it. I was very disappointed. But then, the idea came into my head to contact the director of the program and so I did. After talking to her for awhile, she said that if I could get my application in as soon as possible, she would consider me. I was overjoyed.
I worked as hard as I could to get everything to her. The transcripts ended up taking a little more time to get there than I hoped, but it got there. I think about two weeks later I received a letter. I was not home when it came and so while with Mika, I asked my mom to open it for me. She played a cruel trick by telling me it was a rejection letter :) But in all actuality, it was an acceptance letter and now I start the program August 23rd!
I don't know which one of you have read The Alchemist (which I highly recommend), but I feel like I am following my omens. And because I am everything is lining up so that I can accomplish my goals. Life, right now, if filled with so much possibilities. I love it!
Well, I felt like I needed to contact the admissions office and when I did, they said they did accept late applications but I would have to check with the department I wanted to get my master's in to be sure if THEY accepted late applicants. When I contacted them the next day, they secretary said it was too late and that letters had been sent out and I would have to wait until spring. I saw no point to waiting until spring. By then I would be done with most of my pre-med classes. But if I could start the masters in the fall, it would take me as long to finish that as it would my pre-med classes. It sounded perfect! Perfect until I found out I couldn't do it. I was very disappointed. But then, the idea came into my head to contact the director of the program and so I did. After talking to her for awhile, she said that if I could get my application in as soon as possible, she would consider me. I was overjoyed.
I worked as hard as I could to get everything to her. The transcripts ended up taking a little more time to get there than I hoped, but it got there. I think about two weeks later I received a letter. I was not home when it came and so while with Mika, I asked my mom to open it for me. She played a cruel trick by telling me it was a rejection letter :) But in all actuality, it was an acceptance letter and now I start the program August 23rd!
I don't know which one of you have read The Alchemist (which I highly recommend), but I feel like I am following my omens. And because I am everything is lining up so that I can accomplish my goals. Life, right now, if filled with so much possibilities. I love it!
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